my silence and my situation; ramblings of a mad man
Posted: Fri Nov 18, 2011 3:29 am
Seems strange after my flurry of painting of Khador to go silent. Prim knows some of what has been going on, needless to say it's all been pretty bad. I thought last year was the year from hell, now I know that it was only a small pit stop on the way there.
A while ago I said I was getting medical treatment. The main part of that (stomach ulcer, bacterial infection, what not) has been cleared up and things were looking better though I am still being medicated for anxiety, depression and insomnia. Then mid october the bottom dropped out. Two days in a row, I was betrayed by two people I trusted, an old friend and a girl I was trying to build a relationship with. Both of them I trusted completely and the betrayals came as a horrible shock. A week or so later, I was also defrauded out of 180,000 yen. And more.
So I'm not in a happy place now. The meds help but there is a lot to sort out and losing that much money has left me to make some very hard decisions; things that could have been postponed but now need to be done. Sadly I am doing almost all of it alone which is making things worse, the isolation is depressing.
So I have come to you, the gaming geeks of Japan to help me with one of my issues, the hobby.
Living in Seki means that it is hard for me to get down to Nagoya to game with people. Now that I am broke, it has become all but impossible to do. So unless someone is feeling generous enough to come up here, my gaming time is zilch.
But that is not the crux of my problem. As a hobby there is always more to do besides just gaming. Assembly, painting, terrain building, army building and what not. With my interest in four different games (fantasy, 40K, warmachine, FoW), I have lots of different armies to paint and build, in fact, I have too many of such varying sizes to work with.
40k
Minotaurs/30k Word Bearer merger maybe 3,000+ pnts
Imperial Guard 5,000+
Demons of Chaos approx 2,000
Grey Knights approx 2,000
Orks starter box units
Fantasy
High Elves unknown pnts
Warriors of Chaos 2,500
Dark Elves 1500+
Wood Elves battalion plus mage
Empire battalion plus 2 mages and some other stuff
Lizardmen old battalion
Skaven approx 2,000
Brettonians approx 1,500
Dwarfs battalion plus black fire pass
goblins black fire pass
Warmachine
Khador 35 pnts
Retribution of Scryah (xmas present coming soon) 25 pnts
FoW
Fallschirmjager approx 2,000 pnts
That's a lot and it's a huge mess. Part of the reason for this debacle is how I was paid as an outrider. For a long time all that was available for many armies was the plastic parts. So I purchased and spread out and GW gave me some extra stuff as well. Some of it was good ideas gone bad. I enjoyed the idea of having an Empire army oppose my WoC but once I got the models, I just couldn't stand them. Part of the fantasy was that the girl I was trying to see was interested in painting an army so I kept them around in case she chose one of those.
So what to do with all this mess? Some of it has to go. I need to cut down the numbers in fantasy and one from 40k. My armies are divided into easy to paint bulk and more higher quality (I do want to improve my painting skills) and between the two, deciding what to do is just hard. That my skills aren't high enough for some of the armies I have is also frustrating (fallschirmjager for example) Also with money problems, my desire to expand further into FoW and warmachine as well as bulk out any army that I do keep has ground to a complete halt. I've thought about trading away armies for units in what ever army I decide to keep, making a bulk trade with a huge discount, but which ones do I keep, which ones do I sell, what type of discount and would anyone go for it?
So I'm looking for some advice and ideas. Right now the hobby feels more of a hindrance and burden then a hobby and I would desperately like to turn that around.
A while ago I said I was getting medical treatment. The main part of that (stomach ulcer, bacterial infection, what not) has been cleared up and things were looking better though I am still being medicated for anxiety, depression and insomnia. Then mid october the bottom dropped out. Two days in a row, I was betrayed by two people I trusted, an old friend and a girl I was trying to build a relationship with. Both of them I trusted completely and the betrayals came as a horrible shock. A week or so later, I was also defrauded out of 180,000 yen. And more.
So I'm not in a happy place now. The meds help but there is a lot to sort out and losing that much money has left me to make some very hard decisions; things that could have been postponed but now need to be done. Sadly I am doing almost all of it alone which is making things worse, the isolation is depressing.
So I have come to you, the gaming geeks of Japan to help me with one of my issues, the hobby.
Living in Seki means that it is hard for me to get down to Nagoya to game with people. Now that I am broke, it has become all but impossible to do. So unless someone is feeling generous enough to come up here, my gaming time is zilch.
But that is not the crux of my problem. As a hobby there is always more to do besides just gaming. Assembly, painting, terrain building, army building and what not. With my interest in four different games (fantasy, 40K, warmachine, FoW), I have lots of different armies to paint and build, in fact, I have too many of such varying sizes to work with.
40k
Minotaurs/30k Word Bearer merger maybe 3,000+ pnts
Imperial Guard 5,000+
Demons of Chaos approx 2,000
Grey Knights approx 2,000
Orks starter box units
Fantasy
High Elves unknown pnts
Warriors of Chaos 2,500
Dark Elves 1500+
Wood Elves battalion plus mage
Empire battalion plus 2 mages and some other stuff
Lizardmen old battalion
Skaven approx 2,000
Brettonians approx 1,500
Dwarfs battalion plus black fire pass
goblins black fire pass
Warmachine
Khador 35 pnts
Retribution of Scryah (xmas present coming soon) 25 pnts
FoW
Fallschirmjager approx 2,000 pnts
That's a lot and it's a huge mess. Part of the reason for this debacle is how I was paid as an outrider. For a long time all that was available for many armies was the plastic parts. So I purchased and spread out and GW gave me some extra stuff as well. Some of it was good ideas gone bad. I enjoyed the idea of having an Empire army oppose my WoC but once I got the models, I just couldn't stand them. Part of the fantasy was that the girl I was trying to see was interested in painting an army so I kept them around in case she chose one of those.
So what to do with all this mess? Some of it has to go. I need to cut down the numbers in fantasy and one from 40k. My armies are divided into easy to paint bulk and more higher quality (I do want to improve my painting skills) and between the two, deciding what to do is just hard. That my skills aren't high enough for some of the armies I have is also frustrating (fallschirmjager for example) Also with money problems, my desire to expand further into FoW and warmachine as well as bulk out any army that I do keep has ground to a complete halt. I've thought about trading away armies for units in what ever army I decide to keep, making a bulk trade with a huge discount, but which ones do I keep, which ones do I sell, what type of discount and would anyone go for it?
So I'm looking for some advice and ideas. Right now the hobby feels more of a hindrance and burden then a hobby and I would desperately like to turn that around.